I’ve not been feeling too great recently – struggling with life with a stoma mentally. I don’t know why, but it’s still not really sunk in that I have it. I just kinda get on with it, it’s there and I can’t change it so I go about day to day life, but I really wish I could change it and get rid of it. I still hate it.
My friend Ashley has been kidnapping me recently to cheer me up, we went out for dinner one night and came home at 3:30 in the morning because dinner turned into dinner and a drink. Then one drink turns into two, then two to three. Then before you know it you’re in the middle of Yates singing your heart out to Mr Brightside and The Circle of Life! It was a good night to say the least!
We went to one of my favourite places for dinner – North Hill Noodle Bar! This was a bit of a risky move as I’ve been told Chinese veg isn’t the best for people with stomas as it’s quite crunchy but that didn’t even cross my mind. I just wanted a night where I went out, and was “normal” and colitis didn’t rear its ugly head, and that’s what I had!
I had a brilliant time, however I’m sure if Karen (my stoma nurse) saw the picture of what I had to eat she’d have a mini heart attack and tell me to be careful what I’m eating! I left the cabbage and green peppers, because I’ve never been a huge fan of them anyway! But otherwise I thoroughly enjoyed it and there were no negative consequences such as blockages which was good (especially considering the number of fizzy drinks I consumed after eating it)!
So, because I’ve been feeling crap about a fair few things recently, I booked myself a little mini holiday. So that’s me off to Marmaris on May 16th, by myself. I originally had the time booked off to go to Callam’s Mum’s wedding… However he is now an ex boyfriend and I hate wasting time off so I thought why the hell not.
I’m looking forward to it but I am quite anxious about going through airport security by myself, but I do have my stoma passport card to explain it and know to ask for a medical professional to be there if I’m to be searched. It’s all just anxiety and fear of the unknown really.
But I won’t be out there alone, a few of the reps I worked out there with last summer will be there again this year so I’ll see them and go to our favourite restaurants of course! However, there were so many I’m not sure how I’ll fit it all into five days. At least I’ve done all the excursions and boat trips so have plenty of time to spend at the pool, beach and going between restaurants and bars!
And obviously, I’ll spend a day or two in the village at the beach, most likely head to Tiki Beach and have a few of their cocktails! Can’t go all the way to Turkey and not visit where I spent possibly the best six months of my life!